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How bizarre. Are we living in hell? Once a long time ago, I was in a car accident. Two people died, three survived. It's amazing how fast shit can happen. Anyway, it was the pain......ouch. Damn that hurt. They thought I was dead, pried me out of the wreckage last because there was no hope that I was alive. Well, I can't explain it but here I am. There was another time, I almost bought the farm while working as a farm hand on a farm. Long story, but I was almost crushed between a hay wagon and the barn. Well I know this may be hard to believe, but I've come close several times. I don't get it, is it just dumb luck? Or does god have a reason? Most of us don't give much thought to how fragile our bodies are, let alone our minds. There's more, but I can't tell all. The thing is, I'm still here and many have passed on. How many people die every day? Why are we so afraid to live? I guess I mean, "why am I so afraid"? I could have died many times and on an intellectual level I shouldn't be afraid of little things.What does it matter what other people think? When I die, I'm leaving them all behind anyway.