Eh Fans, I've been a pretty busy boy. Haven't had the energy to keep up with everything I got going while I was unemployed. I'm flirt'n with disaster and I know it. Problem is almost like they say, I don't have control of my life. Do I or don't I? In aa the saying goes my best thinking got me into the dark and dreary gloom of addiction. So I'm supposed to give up control to my higher power. Well, it seems to me I'm pretty much back to round one. Round one just about tore me apart last time, after all I've been through and here I am again. I'm sober but I already know it's not going to last long. You see I can't stand the idiots I have to deal with on the job. There's always someone in every dam workplace that ends up having a problem with me. It doesn't matter what I do or say, O don't get it, been the curse of my life. I'm kinda thinking we all have the same type of problems on the job, it's the way we handle it that's different. At least I'm still sober. Around and around and around we go, where we'll stop nobody knows. I've just got to give it up, turn it over to my higher power. Only I can't see it working, if I don't exert some pretty extreme control I'll blow my top. Paradox. I need a drink, I don't mean I'd like to have one but I need one. I don't know how I'm gonna handle this fucking fuck I've got to work with but I'm telling you right now I hope my higher power gives me the strength I need to have here. I know I shouldn't do what I've always done in the past and let this guy push my buttons. I need to keep this job, and that's what I mean by being back to round one. It's the biggest fucked up thing we have to deal with in this life and that's taking it up the ass from some pussy assed punk because we need to keep our jobs. Fuck! I'm gonna do my best, that's all I can do. God help us both.
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