yeeeeehaaa

oh crap, I'm in a funny place, just have to make the best of it. I relapsed twice now in a short time. I'm trying to get the doctors to help me but nope...... I guess I can see their point in a way but it's just wrong. They won't prescribe me any benzo's for anxiety. Weird, I guess they just don't do that anymore, too dangerouse. I'm supposed to be better off drinking vodka than getting benzo's. I really doubt it, but that's their position on the subject. I'm having trouble getting my daughter on the phone also, not sure what the problem is, but I'm sure their is a problem. I need a few things from my apartment and no way to get out of hear to get the stuff. Tomorrow I'm going to try to get a pass or something so I can get some of my stuff, dammit. Well anyway, I ended up spending a month at Fairview Riverside psych ward and now I'm in the Mayo Clinic Psych ward. What's up with that crap? It's me, wasn't kidding about my addiction problem. Well, me gonna go read and nap.