I'm back for good now

Simon Says:
Hey I'm back. This time for real. I've been away for so long I need to get reacquainted with this whole blog. It needs a lot of fixing. The streaming audio thing is still my dream but I'm going to have to start from scratch. I lost two of my computers since I was on last, but I hung on to this one which wasn't easy. Time to upgrade anyway, just need to keep this hard drive.
I'll try to give you some perspective on where I've been for the last year or so. I realize I've probably lost all my former readers but they may come back. I left the shared house as I said I was going to and moved in with a friend who was also in the shared house. That didn't go well so I moved again, this time I rented a room in a house not far from here and that didn't go well either. Keep in mind that I had relapsed way before the first move. After that I moved to another place and didn't get along with the landlord there either. So I moved again, now I'm back at my friends house, the one I moved out on before. Pretty crazy. After this, no more roommates for me! I'm trying to save up enough to rent my own apartment for a change instead of renting rooms. Sober now, but it's only been a few days. That's the short version of the last year, maybe some of the details will emerge as we get back into this thing.
I just had dinner and had to go grocery shopping to get some food to cook. While at the grocery store I just happened to run into my AA sponsor whom I had just told a couple of weeks ago I was through with the AA program. Just fed up with it. Truth is I was sorry I left, AA had become my only social activity for the last 8 years that I don't know what to do with myself. So I told my old sponsor that I'm going back, maybe as early as tomorrow. The only thing about AA is you end up meeting a lot of people that still drink and I always end up right there with them. I can see how I gradually slid back downhill until I was back to where I started, almost. Caught myself before things got too bad, but I guess I need AA to keep me from going down the tubes too far. That means I've never been totally abstinent for very long. but it's those short stretches of sobriety that have kept me alive.
I just recently took a road trip out to Arizona with my roommate and ended up leaving him there. We were both too fucked up to make any rational decisions and he wanted to fly back so I left him there and took off to New Mexico. I stayed in New Mexico for a little more than a week and my roommate was supposed to be back here to Minnesota long before I. Turns out he never showed up for another month and when he got here I had to bring him directly to the ER because he was bleeding internally. The hospital said he was on the brink of death when I brought him in. They were even considering giving him an emergency liver transplant because his liver was all fucked up from doing too much vicodin and alcohol. This all happened within the last couple weeks. He's out of the hospital now but is still drinking and doing whatever else. I decided to sober up again and return to AA. My room mate isn't interested in AA or NA. Just wants to keep getting high.