Wow, it's been awhile, sorry about that if there's anyone left. I kinda crashed and burned, but as usual I'm still stand'n. Had ton's of fucking problems keeping on my feet. I was found by some of my old asshole buddies. Ran into one in the grocery store? Of all places, running into someone I know in a grocery store happens like never, I guess, unless I'm trying to avoid them. Especially in a different city. Well thing's got a little crazy again i.e.. I got a little crazy. First time I wanted to kill someone, I mean actually wanted to. I ain't really sure how he turned out but I don't think it was good. Of course we started using again and I gradually went nuts. I'm okay now, and gone for good. I was just listening to Pandora on my computer and this song came on that I've never heard before, I liked it, so here's the lyrics:
"Like A Stone"
On a cob web afternoon,
In a room full of emptiness
By a freeway I confess
I was lost in the pages of a book full of death;
Reading how we'll die alone.
And if we're good we'll lay to rest,
Anywhere we want to go.
In your house I long to be;
Room by room patiently,
I'll wait for you there like a stone.
I'll wait for you there alone.
And on my deathbed I will pray to the gods and the angels,
Like a pagan to anyone who will take me to heaven;
To a place I recall, I was there so long ago.
The sky was bruised, the wine was bled, and there you led me on.
In your house I long to be;
Room by room, patiently,
I'll wait for you there like a stone.
I'll wait for you there alone, alone.
And on I read until the day was gone;
And I sat in regret of all the things I've done;
For all that I've blessed, and all that I've wronged.
In dreams until my death I will wander on.
In your house I long to be;
Room by room, patiently,
I'll wait for you there like a stone.
I'll wait for you there alone, alone.
In a room full of emptiness
By a freeway I confess
I was lost in the pages of a book full of death;
Reading how we'll die alone.
And if we're good we'll lay to rest,
Anywhere we want to go.
In your house I long to be;
Room by room patiently,
I'll wait for you there like a stone.
I'll wait for you there alone.
And on my deathbed I will pray to the gods and the angels,
Like a pagan to anyone who will take me to heaven;
To a place I recall, I was there so long ago.
The sky was bruised, the wine was bled, and there you led me on.
In your house I long to be;
Room by room, patiently,
I'll wait for you there like a stone.
I'll wait for you there alone, alone.
And on I read until the day was gone;
And I sat in regret of all the things I've done;
For all that I've blessed, and all that I've wronged.
In dreams until my death I will wander on.
In your house I long to be;
Room by room, patiently,
I'll wait for you there like a stone.
I'll wait for you there alone, alone.
It's by a group named AUDIOSLAVE.
Well, I can't talk openly right now, it's like being in a room where you don't want anyone to overhear you. I'll have to figure a way into a different room or something, but for now I plan on writing what I can. I don't wanna be found again, not sure how that would go and I ain't going to find out. I'm healthy and a little pissed.
One thing I can say is I ain't in a depression right now as usual but I'm on medication, a lot less than usual and it's better, just don't know how long this will last. It never lasts. But I'm back for awhile, I think that might last unless I get killed or something. Things had gotten so bad it's almost amazing it didn't happen. Be back soon, Simon Garth.
