Simon Says:

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I don’t know this takes some getting used to. I have not made an entry into my blog for years. Technology has made many advancements. Text to speech software is a wonderful thing. However I must say it works a lot better on an android smart phone that does on a PC. I am using a PC to write this. I bought the software last week and have now just begun to experiment with it. So far, I guess as with anything new, I don’t like it. The reason I don’t like it so far is it does not seem very accurate. However, I’ve been playing with it for a few hours now and the more I play the better I get. Even with its flaws, I still find it easier and faster than typing. I’m also able to think clearer because I’m not wasting any of my thoughts on where the next keystroke is. I must say this is the furthest I’ve been able to get without too much trouble. Right now I am thinking I’m glad I did not give up on it too easy. The more I learn to use his program the more I’m beginning to like it.

 

One thing that is definitely going to be hard for me is that others around me will be a will to hear the things I am writing. I am a very private man and I keep most of my thoughts to myself. The problem is I have to let them out, or I will go absolutely crazy as I’ve done so many times before. I don’t write this stuff for any one particular person beside myself. I can’t seem to explain why but it seems to help me. Actually when I say there are others around me that can here when I’m writing and saying at the same time there is really only one person and that person my wife, yes, I have remarried since the last time I made a blog entry. I’ve been married a little over two years now, I’ve moved a long distance to be with this woman. Where I am now, the culture is unlike any other I can remember living in. Not only that, my entire life has changed. My marriage has only been a small part of those changes. I guess most of them have been in my head. I still suffer from the same things I did years ago but I have changed. I moved out into the country and I want to tell you that there’s something about living in the country that makes you feel older, chronologically speaking and possibly mentally.

 

I once said that I would never own my own house again but I guess somehow I ended up going back on my word. When you own your own house it becomes a burden. It’s a never ending full-time job maintaining it. I don’t really feel like I own this house but I do live in it and I am married to the woman who does own it. This particular house has been neglected since the day it was built back in 1978. Absolutely everything you can imagine needs to be done to it. And at times I feel a bit overwhelmed with it to the point of just wanting to let it go. It’s just I have other things I like to do with my life at least what’s left of it. I guess in a way it keeps me under some control and busy on the days I do get around to working on it.

 

If you compare my life to the way it used to be, I’m sober now but am very, very bored. Well you can see why I don’t like saying these things to loud. All I know is I feel like I have more work to do here on this house than I can ever handle. So I feel that this house even given my best efforts is going to slowly deteriorate as time goes on. But I guess I’m going to do my best, I can’t afford the help I need and people around here are just plain untrustworthy and lazy. So it seems I lost a lot of my enthusiasm. I do miss getting high and the parties and the fun people. The people here are bit different. They only believe in one thing and that is praising the Lord Jesus Christ and that is all that matters to them. I live in what they call the Bible belt, in the Deep South which is referred to as the low country. I guess for now it’s okay, but it is true, I do miss the life, and I’m not getting and younger.